Uhh.......

I was looking back on my EX page 
And I saw the journals that he put up
About him loving me....He never took them down.....
And I think to myself 'He never ment it....' 
And every time I think that a tear goes down my cheek....
It makes me sad....because.....
I think I still love him.....
But I keep thinking 'No you can't fall in love with him....not after.....last time......'
But....I'm SO happy with the boyfriend I have now
And I don't want to lose him....
But.....
I don't know what to do...
Why is my life so hard.....